Los Angeles

Here it goes again...

There are times when I don't write for a while and then there comes time when I keep writing. It's the later part now. I visited LA few months back but never got a chance to write about it. I was entangled in a way that I could not find time to write anything. Anyways, I am back now. You will find frequent updates from now on...

Here's my LA story.

My Boss comes to my desk and says "You have to go LA tomorrow" 

I said "seriously" 

he says "yes, book tickets now"

And another minute, I am booking tickets for LA.

I planned everything quickly. I can stay only 2 nights, hence I had to plan it properly. Also I was alone, so 2 nights/3 days were enough for me to explore it as per my taste. I had to leave early next day but still I stayed late in office to properly plan and book everything-car,hotels etc.

Next morning, I reached ORD airport and then to LA. I took a Beetle from airport and headed directly to office. I had to get a training from the current IT person over there. She was going out of account, so her office mates planned a farewell party. We attended the party and started taking a walk through the office building. I just wanted to get the feel of how work is done there so that I can provide transition to new tech. We completed our tour soon and then discussed places to visit nearby. I did'nt wanted to deep dive as I was already tired. Evening, I went to the hotel. Got refreshed and headed to eat something as I was really hungry. I did'nt had much in morning. I was trying to take a selfie while eating and a lady sitting next table tried to come into picture. I invited her and then we started talking about places to visit and what not. There were two Cali ladies and were saying that I should go to beach to see more as they are beautiful.
I cracked a joke by saying, "I wanna see girls and not ladies".

I finished my dinner and headed towards the city to take a walk. I spoke with few people at home and then came back to have a sound sleep.
Good Night.

The Mask

There was a change in my life when I visited India last time. History repeats. Everything changed again. I lost a lot when I made my last trip. Trips always gives me memories. Memories can be good as well as painful. These memories are heart shaking. I am sad from long time. Pain is so much that I was being noticed. Everyone around me said, "I look sad". I actually am.

Even when I was at home, my parents recognized sadness in my behavior. I am going through a tough time. I have lost a part of me. I have lost my life. Never the less, I have to put a mask on my face. This mask will help people around me feel comfortable. It will make them feel that I am normal. Again, history repeats. I was in same situation few years back and had to put a mask. I am so good in putting that mask that no one ever knows until I tell them. It took 3 years for me to come out last time. I don't think that this society is gonna let me be in pain for that long. It will be bad for people around me as well. I will have to come out ASAP this time. 

I came out on my own last time, it is gonna be pretty much the same again. I can write all this freely as I know most people are not going to read this. The people who are gonna read this, may not give it proper attention as required. Any case, will get to know.